keep on screaming
rip my heart open, tear at your own voice
you were only my parents, how could you know
that the pain that you spilled on me
would continue to flow
my uncle hears voices
that are not there
and as i speak to him, i realize
things will never be the same
another uncle visits
just after my grandma dies
and the void in my heart continues to grow
until the only thing i can think
will fill the ache is chasing after vanity of vanities.
i visited a church once
and the fire of the truth seared my soul
i had to change
had to stop abusing others out of my own pain.
i gave it all to God, or so i thought
and i finally realized all these years later
that everyone was not against me...
i just had to make up my mind
who to follow.
10:18 pm 1/19/07